01.17.02 - 12:10 am
its funny, i feel better having forgotten what a jerk he can be. we exchanged small talk and smiles, and afterward i didnt hate him nearly as much as i thought i would.
good.
and i just spent the last two hours reading things i shouldnt, looking for secrets that dont really pertain to me, hoping to find something that isnt that important anyway. go figure.
im so vague. so stupid and vague. i realized today that nothing ive ever written in here is in any way a model of my real live day to day grind.
diary. hmph. aint no thang.
and i know this isnt what you expect. it isnt even close. but for a moment lets pretend that the things that happen are really worthwhile. lets pretend that it isnt so terrifying to name names and point fingers. lets pretend for a moment that you actually care what music im listening to at this very moment. what happened to me on the way home from school. what i was thinking about during that particularly boring lecture today.
answer: okkervil river- dont fall in love with everyone you see.
answer: the wind chapped my fingers dry.
answer: id sure like to make out with you.
