06.02.02 - 9:38 pm
i came out of it crying, but didn't know why. then dad came in the room and told me everything was fine.
it's normal, he said, to feel shaken and confused.
and the cuts around the lips will heal. the sores will go away and the stitches will dissolve.
but i can't help feeling as though something has happened. i see the movies on tv, the stories on the news, about abuse at the hands of doctors. about anesthetic knockout, about hands shoved down the pants, about putting things where they don't belong, his penis in my mouth, the naked of my thigh caught blinking eggshell in the light...
and im afraid of the reason.
